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01 Apríl 2010 @ 20:17
 
Rin/Amber/Hana/whateveryou want
FUCKING FINALLY.
 Posted protected on 2010.04.01 at 16:17
 Tags: can you feel a brand new day?
 Ok so, I thought this was hilarious.
 
 "Sorry, dude. Therapist bans me from talking to you until the situation is less toxic. Deal with whatever you need to deal with, let me know if you ever want to make amends. We'll use her as a phone mediator.
 
 Until then, arrivederci amico."
 
 This is awesome. I still love the fact that she has therapists 'banning' her from talking to people. Because she's that old, and she can't make her own decisions, she has to speak with medical professionals (not a psychologist or anything - her 'therapist' is a Registered Nurse, which, uhm) to decide who should and shouldn't stay in her life.
 
 I am fucking free, thank you god. Somewhat polite but slightly snarky reply is oncoming. I can't help it. I'm sure I'll be punished for this later, somehow, but. It might just be worth it.

 I woke up to this, my day is fucking awesome.
 
 Me? Toxic? Sorry, but usually only when I'm trying.
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nothing says love like lust (halcyonseason) replied to a comment you left in a LiveJournal post. The comment they replied to was:
Actually Annette is a trained therapist and soon a form of psychiatrist as well.

If you wanted to be 'free', why not say something before? I am entirely neutral in this but I feel that is an okay observation to make.
Their reply was:
That doesn't excuse the fact that nothing, for me, should ever mean that another person can say 'you can't talk to this person for your own health'. Even with Rinna, that just felt insane. You both knew it was toxic to speak with her, you both knew it was bad. And what happened? Kept talking to her. Nyaabari or settling things or being fair, none of this is an excuse to me. If she's that bad, just stop. No questions. Just. Stop. And I said that numerous times before. It took someone else to finally make it happen, apparently. Losing the ability to be able to say for yourself 'I can't handle this person', is one of the worst things that could happen in my eyes. I'm not toxic, I never have been, I've never done anything but try and help and be there, but really, I think she expects too much of me. A lot. Whether that's true or not, I don't know, I don't care. 

I should have said something sooner, I should have just stopped everything in December, because it's felt like I was dying since then, until Nel. 

That is an ok observation. You're right, you have nothing to do with this, and you have the right to say what you feel as a third party. You're still someone I respect, but I don't want to be anywhere near her, I don't want to be affiliated with her in anyway. I'm staying in milliways just because I love that place. I didn't leave because I didn't want the feeling that had happened before, I didn't want to feel like I'd lost a part of myself. But, honestly, I had not realized that such a strong rift had grown, and that I honestly stopped caring about anything other then rp with her, and when that stopped almost entirely, I pretty much stopped caring for that too, because it became clear that it was never going to happen. Something would always get in the way. 

It's the end, this is better, if I'm really so toxic? then it's good, I'm sure she'll be better off. 

All of this is my opinion, these are my thoughts and how I feel of the situation. Again, it's not fair to not speak with you too, please know I'm not 'lumping you in with her', I do not hate you and I do not dislike you and never would I wish anything but the best for you. I just can't be around her at all, and you're both so close and intertwined in a way most siblings aren't, it's almost strange to me to talk to one of you but not the other, because you've always been together and wanted to be together.



ooooh,lock'd

I am still replying. If you want to be 'fair' then you will let me.

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That doesn't excuse the fact that nothing, for me, should ever mean that another person can say 'you can't talk to this person for your own health'. Even with Rinna, that just felt insane. You both knew it was toxic to speak with her, you both knew it was bad. And what happened? Kept talking to her. Nyaabari or settling things or being fair, none of this is an excuse to me. If she's that bad, just stop. No questions. Just. Stop. And I said that numerous times before. It took someone else to finally make it happen, apparently. Losing the ability to be able to say for yourself 'I can't handle this person', is one of the worst things that could happen in my eyes. I'm not toxic, I never have been, I've never done anything but try and help and be there, but really, I think she expects too much of me. A lot. Whether that's true or not, I don't know, I don't care.

You say these things as if you did not keep people you knew were wrong for you in your life for a very long time. Or that you don't know patterns of abuse for the victim. Or many other things I could name, but I will not. Because you already know what I mean without a statement of it.

I should have said something sooner, I should have just stopped everything in December, because it's felt like I was dying since then, until Nel.

And I have a chat log from the november/december bridge where you said you wanted to promise engagement someday and that you couldn't operate without us in your life. More statements as such with the latter, even after meeting her. So. By admitting you should have said something in December? By not saying anything until provoked? It is April. Read your first statement again. Wonderful job of hypocrisy.

You are lumping us together, and you are an entirely different person than I thought you were.  So I can get over losing the mask of a person, and refuse to meet the true person inside. We're both moving emails, so don't even bother to try to reply. Nobody's listening anymore.

PS: Good on you for deciding to make Henry feel bad, too. Enjoy the fact you hurt a three year old, if that makes you feel any better about yourself.
 
 
 
opioid naïve patientnepheliad on 2. Apríl 2010 13:32 (UTC)
not a psychologist or anything - her 'therapist' is a Registered Nurse, which, uhm)

EXCUSE YOU.

WELL, HER, OBVIOUSLY, NOT YOU. THIS IS PROFESSIONAL RAGE HERE. >:O

*specializing in psychiatric nursing*

*ANGRY FACE*
shake up!!! shake up!!!badninja on 2. Apríl 2010 22:18 (UTC)
I KNOW RIGHT. I think Annette does amazing things and I think you do amazing things and when you graduate you will continue to do so. That part really made me want to kick her in the ass.

What gets me about that one is both her mother and grandmother are RNs, and she claimed respect for them for it.

lol-lies.
火の鳥 pa-trick ; that's ele-le-le-ctricmic_soldier on 3. Apríl 2010 07:25 (UTC)
woooow

the new parts are very exciting

i'm not putting them publically, but since you helped me so much, if you want to see where it ended up, i can email you.

she is just. wow. okay.

-mandy